sometimes it feels
like the few months we spent together
was just a dream
i swear it was real
and it certainly feels like it should've been
but in the week following your passing
i couldn't help but pick up this surreal sense
of fakeness
like the world around me was just some
really elaborate movie set
and it hasn't stopped feeling like that since
so bev, if you're still out there somewhere
if your soul is watching over me constantly
like a one-way window
that i long so much to just reach my arm out
and grab you by the hem of your shirt through
just to kiss you again
i really want you to know
i loved you
i still love you
more than anything in the entire universe
and if you can
please give me a sign
a sign that you still love me too